Hello Again, Old Friend

How have you been?

It’s been a while since the last time I wrote. More than two years to be precise. I’ve been okay. What about you? Sorry I fell away for a while, I guess life just got in the way. Or maybe it was because I was scared of speaking my mind. You see, I had lost my voice, and only recently, have I had it find its way back to me.

A lot can happen in two years- let alone almost five years, from when I started this blog. You can go from being with someone who you think is the love of your life, to finally realising it was anything but. You can finish school, learn to drive, get glasses, travel the world, have your family battle cancer, learn new languages, new skills, new friendships, lose friendships, laugh, cry and love. But as of the recent year, it was particularly dark- and I managed to find the end of the tunnel back into the light, all by myself.

But i’ve recently found my feet again, and my voice, and of course, myself. And luckily enough, the stars aligned and I managed to find new people. People who felt like i’ve known my whole life. People who actually care about me.

So this is an ode to myself, and whomever on the internet who actually reads this. That life happens sometimes, and that’s okay. But i’m good now. Happy. Actually so happy. And i’m back. A fully-fledged woman, nevertheless, with more adventures and stories than you can probably keep up with.

So I hope you’ll stay to here the stories.



One Day

I have people asking me a lot of questions in regards to what do you want to do with your life, do you think you’ll get married, have kids, etc. And I honestly couldn’t tell you an answer. I don’t know where I will be one month- let alone five or ten years. I could die from a car crash, or go blind or even lose the ability to walk. So I try to take in each day as much as I can. So all I can say to you is; one day.

Novel Writing

I’ve started to write a novel, not sure where it’s going at the moment- but 3500 words certainly says i’m on my way. However, it’s an average 10,000 words per book (eek!). I wonder if I’ll actually finish it- I could even turn it into an eBook and sell it. That’s if it’s even good enough or if I finish it. But at the moment, it seems like it’ll get somewhere!

You are not a Tree

There’s a famous quote that goes, “If you do not like where you are. Move. You are not a tree.” And honestly, I find that so beautiful and so brutally honest. So right now, I currently feel like a tiny tree in the middle of a overwhelming forest. I need out. I need a new job, one where I don’t have to pay for it when customers rip me off. And I need a new landscape- I want to travel, I want to take photographs. I’m sick of studying subjects at university that don’t interest me. I’m sick of being stuck in an agency most weekday nights, watching people throw away their money, when i’m so eager and struggling to save my own. I’m a tree that’s too small to see the view above the others right now.


Lately, i’ve been feeling a little hopeless. Probably because i’ve been trying so hard with saving my money for America. Every spare cent, i’ve been putting aside- it’s just so difficult when you have to pay for literally everything yourself. Today, when my boyfriend was talking to me about it- he said it exactly spot on. I have to pay for everything myself- and once I find another job, my parents seem to talk me out of it somehow. I wanted to place uni on hold this semester so I could get a full time job, but my parents don’t even want me to do that. I don’t know what i’m doing- all I know is that I want to travel and I want to see the rest of the world, and i’m too stubborn to give up on my goals. I had to place my final payments for my snow trip next week- and my parents tried to talk me out of going, because they don’t think i’ll be able to save anything. But I have been saving and in fact, i’m doing really well. Not as well as Al, but getting there. So today, my head has been through quite a bit, with anxious thoughts nagging at the back of my mind. Today I felt hopeless.


Recently, I was very lucky to be given the opportunity to work with Flight Centre Australia- in regards to my photo’s. They’re paying me to use my photo’s for their online campaign- which i’m still pinching myself about. Since then, i’ve been lusting over travelling. The thoughts of giving up university for a semester and working two jobs has crossed my mind one too many times. I’ve been bitten by the travel bug, badly. Needless to say, I need to get out of Sydney ASAP.